When you look at me, you would never
think I had any addiction problems. I never had an addiction or any major
behavior problems growing up, however it doesn’t mean it wasn’t a problem in my
life. I’m sure a lot of people can relate. For me, I never had a problem until
Christmas of 2010 when everything from addiction to uncontrolled behavior
intertwined. Prior to that day, at age 24, I had a brand new house which was
paid by a successful construction company ran by my husband and myself. I just
had a newborn and a two year old. Life couldn't have been better. Until he
relapse after eight years of sobriety.
Looking back, there were obvious
signs. However I was in complete denial. The late nights partying; the missing
money; and the missing belongings didn’t alarm me. Then in November, he left
the state with me holding my week-old baby in my arms and my one year old girl
holding tight to my leg standing on a patio that was about to be bank-owned because
he had gambled our mortgage payments away while he was high on speed for the
third day straight. I believed him when he said he was going to get our money
back and come home. Of course, this didn’t happen. A week went by, two weeks,
then three. He promised me to take me out on dates and we even spoke of having
another baby. However Christmas was around the corner and he hasn’t made any
plans to come home. And this is another month we are late on our mortgage. As
you can imagine, this left me in a state of fear and depression. A mixture of
emotions overwhelmed me and I was diagnosed with severe depression. Out of
curiosity of this little pill, I accepted it and it caused me to become a
vegetable in mind and body. I had to get off
of the medication.
